You're probably wondering what this is even about.

Sure, let me explain.

Hello and welcome to my newsletter!

I’m writing this opening edition on a snowy Sunday in Brooklyn, though I’m not sure when this will land in your inbox. I’m a bit of a staller---I let ideas sit and simmer until I feel ready enough to release, which hopefully will be soon. Recently, I discovered an entry from the Notes app on my phone titled “FIRST NEWSLETTER” which was last updated on December 25, 2019, so it’s safe to say I’ve waited long enough.

I wanted to start a newsletter for many reasons but one of the major ones I’ve realized is that I want to spend less time on social media. I grew up both with and on social media but I’m trying to spend less time scrolling and more time elsewhere. Besides, have you really been reading the long, sappy Instagram captions that people post? For the record, I *do* but I doubt others do.

So, what is crybaby szn?

Well, if you’re anything like me, crybaby szn is all year round. For starters, I’m a cancer, so this little crab swims in a sea of emotions. I’m an anxious girl in my head and in my feelings looking for a place to put it all.

crybaby szn was born out of the need to put myself out there and share more of my writing. It is both a product and a process of being a first-generation eldest daughter of immigrant parents who is used to suppressing my ~true feelings~ and recognizing that there are some people who are looking for a genuine response to the question: how are you doing?

Twice a month, I’ll share with you a random bit of my musings. You might read about what recipes I intended to try (let’s be honest, I ordered out, again) or how I’m working through internalized fatphobia. You might read about what shows I’m drowning my existential dread in or what songs I’m humming under my breath & two layers of masks. You might read about what I’m working on in therapy, my quest for a solid hairdresser and nail tech, or something else I haven’t thought of yet.

stay tuned and stay safe 💖

In the meantime, tell your friends!